Nevermind, OT, I looked it up. I thought it was more obscure, that I was missing something. I was having a beginner's mind, giving up what I know, letting go of being an "expert," throwing out what I "should" do, disregarding common sense and fear of failure (all pulled from an article on beginner's mind) a couple of weeks ago. It didn't turn out so well, and my beginner's mind is having a hard time celebrating falling down and getting up again. Rather, I just feel foolish.
I need some understanding more specific to my sitch, I think.
