Maybe you have hit bottom. We all know that wasn't a simple car accident (or whatever.)
Try meetings for codependents. They may be miraculously healing for you for little cost in time and an optional donation of $1/meeting.
Have a beginner's mind. What can it hurt? Happiness is worth overcoming whatever roadblocks you have up your sleeve at the moment.
Take the risk. If nothing else, think of how satisfied you'd be to tell me about how six meetings did nothing for you, about how wrong I've been. That's gotta be a pretty good carrot for you :-)
