Grizz you need to stop focusing on your W. Not being mean do you get this? Do not say you're not. Do not worry about ML, touching, kissing. Please. What are you doing to work on yourself? To become a man only a fool would leave
If your W feels forced to kiss you goodbye etc you will only be resented more later.
DB feels akward. To do the exact opposite of what you want to do. Kind of like when you hit a good golf shot, it feels funny.
How about not mentioning what your W is doing on here anymore. Read Sandi's 37 rules. They answer all the W questions. You're probably violating 1/2 of them