Mana Mana! Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo

[Tallula]

Still feeling ok. Had to thought stop some H & OW thoughts, but feeling good overall. D2 is really struggling. She use to LOVE getting to school and now she sobs histerically when I drop her off. Clings to me. Won't let me put her down at the house, wants me to hold her everywhere. the kids are now fighting over sitting in my ever expanding lap. I've heard here and truly believe that my R with my kids just keeps getting better and better. I'm more patient and understanding. I'll just fold the laundry later, snuggle them now. Lots of crafts, lots of positive validation for them.

H came to S3's easter program. He actually called me about 45 minutes before saying he was on his way to the house. I said we were leaving in 5 minutes, so to just meet us there. He sighed and said "I really wanted to ride with you guys. I miss you so much, and I'm missing so much with the kids."
I just said "Yeah. Gotta finish getting the kids ready." D2 didn't want to sit on his lap, but I set her there and said "Mommy needs to take pictures of S3. Daddy wants some D2 snuggles." She snuggled up.

So, for some reason I decided to check our online balances yesterday. Thank goodness! H had used our debit for a few dr's visits and a med refill and so I had to transfer $ to cover all the outstanding checks. I sent him a short text to just give me a heads up when he uses the card. Well, at first I had clicked his new account because the balance was around the same as our bills checking. The man has spent a boatload of money on this race and I have no idea how the remaining $ will last the 2 + months it is suppose to. I called a friend to vent a bit and she thought I was crazy to 1. not say anthing (and I still don't plan to. Not my business. His problem.) 2. Not approach him about thinking/planning for what will happen at the end of May if we aren't ready to have him move back in.

So, my question is to you all. What do you think I should do? I know he already feels so much pressure to "fix" himself in the remaining time he has. We will not have the money to finance this particular living arrangement come June. He knows it. I worry about it a bit, but honestly I just figure it will work out. He'll have to figure out somewhere to go, and I wont allow him to move back in simply for finanacial reasons.