Running out of steam

[mrtwopointfour]

Why are you snooping? If not for legal reasons I would stop, it causes nothing but anxiety. Either you find nothing, or you find something you don't like which sets you emotions off.

I don't know. I think because she was going away and I wanted reassurance she was going where I understood she was. Turns out she didn't but now I only think the worst when it could be innocent. it's hard not to assume the worst but maybe she also felt that telling me the truth would cause her to feel judged. I hindsight its better not to know. I guess I just want to know if I am being told the truth and where I stand to be able to make decisions. But I no better off for snooping, I can't ask to find more ( well I could but it would either be denied or make matters worse) so more fool me.