Yes M1. I am trying to save JP pain. In my sitch I was so hyper focused on rings being on, OM, Lawyers, if she cooked for me, you name it.
You have 2 choices:
1. File and Get a D 2. Not file, work on yourself, and reinvent your M down the road. WHICH requires YOU to start working on yourself ASAP, look inward, do some serious self growth (fix your anxiety/fear and panic which I am guessing stems from childhood). Don't post on your thread what your W is doing. Post what you are doing to fix your sandbox.
Re-read how you are worried about how worried you are about her having EA and how you can't monitor it so it drives you crazy. That is not health bro. I did it too. I actually still have urges. Like trying to quit Marlboro Reds but all your friends smoke. I get it
I am messed up bad. My D take a late shower, like at 11pm, so when I hear the water turn on, it is a trigger for me. My heart pounds and I get up to go read what W and her have said about me. F@#king makes me sick, that I do that. I lay in bed and think please dont shower tonight, please take the phone in the bathroom with you. I lay there and say JP you do not want to do this to your D, you don't need to look... I get up and go look, I get my fix. Either I find nothing and feel relief, then guilt or find something that was said that makes me sick and then guilt. Guess that is why I dont gamble, smoke, drink etc. I would be a slave to it if I did.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
