Divorced-not done-But wondering ?

[Cadet]

I know that it was the opposite (on my list of 180's) of what I should have done, but does anyone really think that I have already wrecked any possible future contacts from her way?

The best way I can answer this question is to say that you can not speed up this process.
However you can slow it down.

So did you wreck any possible future contact from her, probably not.
It is possible when this is all over she will not even remember 1/2 of what happened.

BUT - Are you slowing down when you are going to get to that point. - YES!

Begging, pleading, pursuing will slow down both her healing and your healing.

Best to speak through your ACTIONS not your words.

Let the results speak for themselves.

I hope that makes more sense.