Lost her love or MLC?

[Alias71]

Have to vent.

The wife is out for the 5th day out of 6. (She probably won't be out tomorrow to catch up on her sleep)

Was having a good day PMA-wise but noticed that I was getting a little more agitated as the day wore on (especially after I noticed her on facebook writing to a guy I believe she's having an EA with. Will I never learn about snooping?!!!!).

I was afraid that I would blow my top so I hid myself away in the cellar (the one place I know no-one will go). The wife shouted down if I was ok. I told her that I was (in the most jolly voice I could muster. Not very jolly at all.) I feel as if I've failed but I did not lose my temper so I suppose that that is a good thing.

Unfortunately I took out my agitation on the children which IS NOT good.

I'm so glad for this place. I haven't had many replies but I do know that what I get will be thoughtful, intelligent and useful.

I have to get GAL-ing. Living in the country, living in a foreign country, not having transport and therefore having to rely on the rubbish public transport and the cold, cold, snowy weather means I'm far more restricted than I would be. It's so depressing. Oh well, I owe it to my children to fight for this marriage even if I don't recognize my wife(quite literally sometimes!)