it's soo wierd isn't it? a mere nine days ago this man was going about his life in his house , etc. and now, he is gone forever. granted his cancer apparently went undiagnoses in there with all his other illnesses - but he was truly surprised that there was nothing to be done about it and no time to do it anyway...!!!.
i think he just accepted it because he was forced to - shut off his brain and drifted away. i'm glad he didn't linger or know for long- but this sure is quickly- it sure makes a person wonder about it all - you know, the whole "scheme of things".
i keep thinking of the comments you've made from time to time about h - and how they were rite on the money. domineering parent(s) - no one "hearing" him, etc. but then i think- in the end- what the heck does it matter why- ?
i guess having known how it feels to be someone's big "it" in their life - i'm still having alot of trouble being the nothing now. my ego? don't know- oh well- forward we go huh?
as dawn's always saying- my (lighthouse is lit - but it's sputtering -
