I just don't see any reason to have realistic hope anymore. Do I want it? Yes. Yet when I take a step back the reality is clear - h does not want me and had devoted himself to another woman. He does not see any of this as a big deal... Even being away from the kids all the time. He wants to keep going and not look back.
I have grasped to tiny threadlike signs of change to keep me going. The truth is I am changing but my sitch is not. My H is convinced I am the one that hasn't moved on and is holding things back. I hear his words and I look at his actions... I look at the past two plus years. The only time he changed his tune was when he was broken up with OW.
I have never been as challenged as I feel right now to let someone go out of love.
We can do this. And I know I couldn't do it without you all xxx
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
