Not much new to report. She texted me yesterday to say she wasn't coming down. She had planned to but said she was emotionally and physically drained. It was easy to be empathetic to that. I just texted back that that was fine and to let me know when she was coming.
She texted an hour ago to say she was coming to take our daughter to exchange a bedspread and then she wants to see our son. I just said OK. It's so hard not to want to talk more and I'm apprehensive about the visit even though I plan to be at the bookstore. So, I'm typing. She is supposed to get more of her stuff each time she comes, but I'm not sure she will if I'm not there. I think I'll just wait and see if she takes anything and if not, maybe send a reminder text to get some boxes next time.
Not seeing her feels like I'm giving up, but if she is going to marry him, I don't see another option.
On the plus side, I've now lost 35 pounds and have continued to work out or go for a walk everyday, even on the cruise. I see my kids more than I ever have and I've been going out with friends 3-4 times a week. Outside of the relationship, my life is better than it has been in years and I weigh less than anytime in the past 5 years.
M: 38 H: 39 D: 20 S: 18 S: 16 T: 14 Y ILYBIDKIILWY/Affair 01/12/2013 Came Back 01/15/2013 Left Again 02/13/2013
