JP, I hope you get some much needed rest. When you awake go outside and take a nice long walk if its nice outside. Start thinking about what you really want in life and how you plan on getting there. I dont have a confirmed OM in my sitch. So i cant speak to exactly how that feels. But i will say there was a weekend a month and half ago where i did some snooping of epic portions and it didn't make me feel better, only worse. For those couple days I was where you are right now. Like I said in an earlier post, it got better when I finally told myself there is nothing I can do to stop it or control even if something is going on anyways. I also believed in my case that I did have some responsibilty for her getting to that point if she actually had. The one questio I had to answer was, "does it change things?" Meaning if I did find out for sure would I not want my W back. My conclusion was no! It wouldnt change anything and I would still want to at least try and work on our marriage. My W is in FLorida all week with a couple of guys. Guess what, for all i know she could be having a threesome every night. But she could also be telling them that she is having second thoughts and wants to work on our marriage. The point is I have no way of knowing for sure. You have control over your thoughts and actions. Once you realize you have that control it will get easier. PMA!!!!
M 37 W 30 S 7 Together 10 years Married 9 years BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day) I moved to apartment 1/11/13 W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13 Peicing: 6/3/13 Reconciled: 7/2013 BD2: 4/20/16 still working on it
