Sounds like you're doing great all things considered. Nice job on the GAL activities Of course you're going to miss W, but just keep pushing forward with your life, you'll eventually get to the point where you don't just think but you KNOW you'll be OK whether you continue on with or without her. Sometimes that can be a pivotal time that starts attracting the WAS back to the LBS, but regardless, you'll come out a better/ stronger person!