Originally Posted By: jp787
Think i will tell w since she wont give up OM we need to D.

That's your decision but I would recommend you think about this a little bit.

Is there any benefit to making that statement now?
Do you think it will help eliminate the pain?
Will it put you in control of the situation?
Is this an ultimatum you're ready for?

Remember what I've told you before about reacting to emotion?

Act instead of react.

Originally Posted By: jp787
I didn't sleep at all.

Not unheard of when dealing with this kind of stuff. I didn't sleep from BD day (a Friday) until that Monday afternoon (literally). I was a complete and utter mess. That weekend I was at a men's retreat and I'll never forget it. So awkward when gathered with almost 500 guys and one of the men's leaders is sitting in corner or against a tree crying most of the weekend... I was just telling one of the guys on here that I broke down in the middle of the championship paintball match, just bawling inside my mask (even took a paint ball to the neck and it didn't get me out of it). Trust me, the emotions you're feeling are perfectly normal and you can, and will, get past them.

The other thing I remember from that weekend and from my time on these boards is how amazing it is that total strangers will support you and lift you up when you're willing to let them. That weekend I wasn't, heck I wasn't ready for a good 4-6 weeks after BD, but when I decided it was time my healing has accelerated exponentially.

Originally Posted By: jp787
Tried breathing

Breathing is a good thing wink.

Originally Posted By: jp787
Will not go to work

Why? Does sitting at home accomplish anything? Seems like it's the opposite of what you should be doing (unless you're doing something fun today which then go for it).


Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are

Turn your trials into your testimonies

Don't believe everything you think

Expectations are resentments waiting to happen