Update, Muskeg behind me, sunrise in front

[Queen_of_Swords]

Hello all,
It's been almost a full year since I last posted here.
Since that time things did not really get better or change with my MLC WAS until fairly recently.
I had reached a point where I had begun to see my future as an open and inviting chance at living the life I chose to make, whatever form it took, and not a burden or something to dread. I am liking my life as it is despite the challenges that have been thrown my way and am content. So much so, I began attending Divorce Care classes at a local church to get my expectations in line and get my head on straight.
Since this was so, I was able to tell the the WAS that it was time to formalize our separation and have done.
This lack of care and concern about preserving our marriage and desire on my part to proceed to Divorce and dissolution had the effect on the H of him asking to attempt a reconciliation.
I informed H that I was open to that, under certain conditions. Conditions he's agreed to.
I am taking this slowly and on my terms, as it now requires from me yet another shift in my attitude and thought. and thinking of my H again as a friend and a lover. Which for the last almost four years he has not been.
At present we are simply "dating", and enjoying each other's company when our schedules permit ( I found a job and am working near full-time).
So, for all of you in MLC limbo land, reconciliation can still happen even if you've pretty much given up and are ready to move forward to a life without your spouse in MLC.

Regards, prayers and best wishes to all of you in the circumstances of that special hell called Mid Life Crisis.