JP- As I told you before, I've been where you are at, many people on here have been.
At the beginning I could not DB for myself and used my kids as motivation. I wanted them to see me walk, and sometimes crawl, through this challenge with dignity, honor, and grace. I wanted them to be able to look back on this time and be proud of their father.
They are looking to you to lead your family through this whether they say so or not. They will feed off your energy.
One step at a time, break it down. Plan some GAL activities even if you don't want to and do them.
