3 Years after D-Day, part 2. Separated 9 Months.

[Am I Too Late]

I know i can't do anything, especially if it seems like pursuit that would push my Wife farther away, but just going on,with my life without my wife and our sons mother here feels so empty.

I really would like to know what message she attempted to cryptically send via that song, "Fallen", that she sent to me to listen to. I don't get why she didn't reply to answer what she felt it meant to her.

I'm making inexpensive plans to take my son to the Wisconsin Dells next week for Spring Break to go to a really large indoor water park, which is where we went last year for Spring Break, and he really wants to go there again.

If my wife stayed sober since when she went to an AA meeting last month, tomorrow will be 30 days for her. I don't know if she continued yet though. No one has mentioned seeing her at any other meeting since that 1st one, but i haven't gone out of my way to find out from former mutual friends either.

I know that if she does get sober again, that that alone won't reconcile our relationship, but without it, there will always be a Zero percent chance. Same goes for all the new friends she made and reacquainted herself with since she decided to relapse.

My son doesn't even mention her anymore because she has become such an inconsistent part of his life.

I'm still trying to move forward, but this weight around my heart still feels like a clenched fist squeezing my feelings out of me

Well, at least my son had a Great St. Patricks Day. We set up a Leprechaun trap and captured 10 gold dollar coins and a fistful of silver quarters overnight. We didn't catch the Leprechaun though. He's a crafty and shifty little person.

AITL