I seem to be back on track thankfully after a bad couple of days.
After showing a couple of signs of affection my wife stated today that if I didn't give her sex she would look elsewhere and would even pay for it! I replied that I assumed that she was getting it elsewhere which was one of the reasons for stating what I did in the following paragraph. She said that she wasn't. So that surely is a good thing, isn't it? Why would she lie about that, and boy does she lie! That's a sign that her affair is either over or has cooled considerably I would've thought or do you think I have misread it?
(I made a mistake yesterday or the day before when I said that I wouldn't have sex with her because I felt used as it was very mechanical; no foreplay, no kissing, nothing; just the act.)
The w did open up a little today and I tried not to jump in with my big mouth and when I did talk I invariably turned what she said into a question to try and elicit more "information" from her.
I had the feeling that she wanted to say something important to me but couldn't muster the courage to do so. (I was right not to force the issue, don't you think?) Or perhaps I'm just mindreading. I'm prone to it unfortunately which is not useful at all.
Bad news is that my children are back to school. They can be annoying and they can be noisy but they're good kids and they bring a sense of perspective to the situation.
Good news is that DB arrived today, finally, so I have that to work through. Hopefully it'll enhance and add to all the great ideas that I've got from here.
Me: 42 W: 40 M: 18 T: 20 D13 D10 S7 BD: 8/2012 Still living together