Bring It On 2013

[BeingMe]

I received a reply from my "H". I have no idea if I should reply, or if I do, what to say?

D (my nickname), I'm going to keep calling you that, because above all I really wanted us to be good friends. There was too much sh*t keeping us from making it work as a married couple, but I hope that we can at least make good friends.

I am sorry I f*cked you around this weekend. I enjoy spending time with you hopefully as much as you enjoy spending time with me. I like coming back on weekends, but it may not be every weekend. This weekend I had the chance of a really nice apartment for when this one runs out but they could not let me wee it till they spoke with the tenant. They could not get hold of him Friday and then I could not get in till Saturday
afternoon. I'm really sorry. I just didn't want to end up in the same situation as with this one where I am looking for something at the last minute and am forced to take something that is less than perfect. I work in the week and its difficult getting around in the rain at night and most of the nice apartments are company owned with management that doesn't work at night. All you get is sh*tty basement apartments for the same price as a proper place.

It drives me crazy when you get so mad at me. You say things that perhaps you don't mean or perhaps you do, but they insult me to the core. The kids are adult and I don't have to be there to see them all the time. I want to see them as often as I can of course but they also have a life. Mel is often with friends and even last weekend when I was home Andrew didn't come and pop in. Not a big deal because I know he is busy.

Anyway, I am fine with what you have said below and I will be home over the weekend.

I wish you every happiness too, but I don't think I need another person. I need to be on my own for a few years at least. Not sure I can ever do this again.

xxx

Is he cake eating? Controlling me? Manipulating? I was digging up all the hurt of being left alone, essentially a single parent while he galivanted all over the world. I thought my sacrifice would be worth it when he comes home for good. Silly me! Funny how he can get a job so close by just when he doesn't want to travel anymore. I'm really seeing him now for the selfish person he is. How insulted should I be? I found a hotel bill with 2 guests. He will tell me, if I mention it, that we were S. Now he wants to be friends!!! My D20 grew up through her teens without a permanent father figure. I can see how much it's effected her. Funny, my S25 pops in all the time. I wonder what that could mean. We were here waiting for him to come home. And, when he was home, he was on his computer all the time. Agh! I just want to scream in frustration, but there's no point. I have enough friends, I want a husband who cares about me, but it won't be him. I don't need him as a friend.

I have to calm down. I was so insulted by his email.