Re not knowing my W, it is because I think she has changed so much since our S was born that she lost herself.
I imagine that is why FB/chat sites etc became such an outlet for her with me working long hours.
Generally feeling a bit feb up at the moment. It has been 7 months since BD and 5 months since she moved out. There has been no R talk at all in this time other than about a week after BD.
Whilst things seem to be going in the right direction I cannot help thinking that W is still getting the best of both worlds and that she is getting what she wanted at BD. That we would be really good friends and nothing more. It is not cake eating as such but with the pick ups and drops offs we get to see each other twice a week, W has the weekends free to do what she wishes so she gets to keep me dangling and her own life as well. I really am starting to doubt my approach.
In my 4 free evenings I go swimming, gym twice a week and a horse riding lesson. My time to socialise is limited as it is difficult to get childcare for S and all my friends go out on the weekends when I have him. Martial arts would be good but I would need to sacrifice one of the other things to give me time to do it.
IDK, feel very angry and frustrated at the moment and I am having more frequent thoughts about giving up, moving away or just something different. My patience is getting v thin.
