Mana Mana! Doo Doo Doo Doo Doo

[Tallula]

I went to a friends house and feel a bit recharged. While I was there H called several times, then texted if I was ok & safe. I eventually resoinded just hsnging with a friend, kids ok? Then he texted other stuff about answering my phone and i just didntvtespind. She pointed out that hecwas nsnipulating me & i dont need tespond to him. I am mind reading, but i feel like he knows sinething...buy i dont care anymore. My friend is in ala-non & has known us both a really long time. She actually goes to the meeting they met in. She said shes seen a change in him.

I've been dark to H pretty much, but we did family things together. I'm don't doing that for awhile. Clearly I can keep my boundaries only so long, and he is going to keep trying to cake eat.

I need to continue to take care of myself, but really let H deal with the consequences of his choices. I'm not an R option right now. I know it, but I let myself think about it a bit. I knew he shouldn't have spent the night, so I will take this as a lesson, move on and keep my head held high. I've blocked OWH & if he tells anyone we messaged, so be it. Not my deal. I'm debating deactivating my account altogether, but I'll sleep on that a bit.

Thanks everyone for being there for my latest meltdown.