Here we go loopty loo. Here we go loopty li.

[Raine]

Yup I get what your saying. I do agree and feel now I'm thinking of this too far into normal and relationship setting. You help me step back and remember what this is. would a normal person would be doing what he is doing right now? It's so absurd. He is playing with all of these other people's emotions like they're pawns in some game, but trying to justify it as "hey we are all friends here. We are just helping each other out." I don't want to be a part of it. But I am.

I know I have power over him right now. I know if I say jump he would. Multiple times this week he has asked me to let him know what i need from him. I don't want to use that and I feel myself getting pulled that way. ^^ case in point. I don't think he really texts them when he is here, so why try to make a big case for it? I know I'm just gearing up for me being in the hospital and him being here with the boys and not wanting to get hurt by some action he may or may not take. But I'm already hurt. Ill leave that alone.