Bring It On 2013

[BeingMe]

I should've read your post first, S. In the end I sent him an email. It was a long one. The first paragraph is below, thereafter I discussed the divorce:

C, I don't know why I was so angry yesterday ... I haven't been so in a very long time, and am somewhat embarrassed. I guess the hurt must still be mulling about inside. I intend to seek counselling ... I feel depressed and lonely so I think I do need the help. I don't blame you, I should know better. Anyway, you are living your own separate life now, and I need to do the same.

Then ended it with:

There are other issues to be discussed, but I think this is the bulk of what's important. Once all is in place, including the divorce, we'll only have to see each other sparingly, like at the odd wedding if any of our kids happen to get married.

regards, D


PS I think I've said this many times, but I do wish you happiness, and I hope you find the right person for you.

He has not replied, and I don't expect he will for awhile. That's his MO. I just want to get all this done. I'm tired of this craziness, from him, but also me. I really do need to see a psychologist or something. I've been having spiraling thoughts that go nowhere. Then, I wonder what life is all about and whether it's worth living it.