Another dollar in my one-man show

[Big Bruce]

Hello,
I know I must seem the archetype of the bad husband at times, but that's only because I have the courage to vent here freely. Yes, the thought of leaving everything crossed my mind, because the suffering was unbearable. I didn't indulge in the fantasy nor acted on it.

And maybe I have this control problem, always wanting to do something to try and get W back. But I learnt to let go and not contact her, not give her gifts, only talk about son, be courteous and not more. Trying to say I was sorry and forgive me's wasn't working.
As for my changes, it all starts with the heart. I think I see W's point of view. This doesn't mean I agree, just that iam able to see her point. To prove it, I am going in her shoes for you: "Bruce isn't a bad guy in the sense mean, but he always wants to be right, is selfish and never really cared for me or Brucie. Now he claims he wants Brucie but that is not his real character."

True, because of my inability to empathise, W felt neglected, and that she didn't count. And i've been struggling with the idea of what to do to make W see that I got it and that from now on I would strive to be more available and sensitive to her?

But it's almost moot point now. I don't see W, only communicate by email and get the cold shoulder (although i'm trained to not expect anything), so i'm miles from convincing W that now i am transformed. So what is left to fight for? Well, my son.
Time with my son is obtained with difficulty, through lawyers, court and thousand of dollars nevermind wife trusting me again and asking me to take care of S.

One last thing your advice is useful. I am only slower than others be patient I thank you so much 4 your help.

have a good sunday bye now, bruce.