I want to share with you my experiences with other people. In my case very few who know our situation. Including my doctor, they are all telling me that it will be fine, and I will be okay. Do they think that I don't know that? What also they don't know that, for 15 years I was loved, a lot, I loved tremendously. I had not only a lover, but a best friend, a life partner. Those are all gone. He was a great husband until this whole mess started, sometimes I wish the opposite, I was always proud of him (now he claims that I never appreciated him). I know that I will not die, not at least because of a heart break, but my life will never be the same... Don't ever tell me that it will be okay...
I find this hard to deal with too. One day you have a friend and confidant, the next day no one to talk things over with! My H claims I only want him to work and bring in the money and I do not appreciate him.
Sometimes banging my head against a brick wall seems very appealing
Me: 49. Him: 51 M: 28 years T: 30 DD27, DD26, DD18 (still at home) Get suspicious Sept '12 World exploded 6 Dec '12
