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[Tallula]

Ok, strong T...gone. Enter messed up big time, now a sobbing mess T.

I seriously need guidance.

So, H and I had a great 24 hours. Lots of positives, great convos "I don't know what will happen with us, but I can see a future.." blah blah, I'm an idiot & slept with him. Yes, I did. He was affectionate, we ran in a st pats race, did the parade, he took a nap, woke up & looked at his phone. Bam, was short with me, said I was being sensitive. It wasn't fights or anything, just a little snippy. I joked that I guess our limit on time together was 24 hours. He left with the kids.

OWs X had messaged me "hey" the night before & I ignored it. I wanted contact ceased. Well, I'm in a meeting and I get this message :
Please get control of your husband before he starts something he can't finish:
I just received a text from him (I have not told OW we've chatted) but she obviously didn't like it when I pointed out to her that the ring she's wearing is representing a broken home & hurt. A ring that H gave her while I was in Rehab.

Next thing I know, she won't allow me to take my kids to dinner & I receive this text from your hubby:

"I wanted to thank you for being a (word that rhymes with hussy) Cause of that sexy OW's name and i are having an amazing time. I am surprised u drive that truck with as many times many name has been called out in it. Please let me know if u want to meet and talk. I bet u keep bullying people instead".

Well, #1 I messaged him that I can't hear things like this, no more. Then I started sobbing & ran out of the meeting. One of the woman I know followed me out, and I ended up telling her evetything.

I'm so hurt. I'm so mad at myself for Pretending for just a little bit that their was hope. That my hubby & I might have a chance. That I so easily lowered my self worth just to feel some love from this man.

I'm waiting for my sponsor to call me back. I just don't know what to do. Clearly her X is not stable. Not that I didn't know that, but now I am wondering if I tell H about the messaging before her X blurts it out to OW to "get her back". My H is incredibly unstable right now. Im torn as tonwhat tondo. Plus H texted all this to the guy either with me here or with my kids.

I feel like I'm in a crazy soap opera. I just feel so lost. Help! I feel a bit back at square one. I feel played. Like, I'll just keep her over here in case I desire this one isn't where I'm going...

Advice, help!!