Bring It On 2013

[BeingMe]

I am so cross at myself. I got into an argument with my H. I thought he was coming home on the weekend when I figured we might discuss the divorce. Would you believe he's not coming?! I quickly cooled down after we both hung up on each other. But, he texted and says he's switching off his phone, 'cause he can't speak to me right now. Okay, so he's off the grid, and I'm not. He's so selfish ... I never know where he is, but here I am, always here (mostly for the kids now). He says he's been depressed all day, but so have I. I had awful nightmares about him last night, and I woke up knowing he's not coming home. He will never be coming "home", and I need this divorce, and I need to get away from this house before I do something ... regrettable.