Lost her love or MLC?

[Alias71]

As I have stated many times before I haven't (as yet) got DB (or DR) therefore I don't know if I'm doing this properly (not that I could consider any book as being the soul solver of a problem as complex as marriage breakdown) but I do have a problem with anger.

It has been, possibly, the main cause of our marital problems before she switched off/went into MLC and the problem is that my anger problems seem to be resurfacing. Instead of exploding, as I did, I have been able to keep a lid on it to a certain extent but I am worried that I won't be able to keep control of it. (I think that I have had some success in being angry in private whilst acting as if she was there) I am so angry with my wife. I have such contempt for the way that she's acting and who's she's "acting with".

I guess I'm just going through the angry affair phase again. She still has no remorse for it. Never discusses it and yet it kills me. Tears are rolling down my cheeks for the first time in ages.

Jeez, I just have to keep on telling myself it's a marathon and not a sprint. I have progressed so much and yet, at times, I feel so, so desperate and alone. I have to stay strong for the children and, of course, for myself.