Perhaps my W is in a fog - if she is and it eventually lifts I want to be a different person. Not just for her, but for myself and my Son.
You and your son HAVE to be your main priority for being a better person, no buts allowed. I still get the feeling you're trying to change with the goal of saving your M. These changes have to be for you because you want the changes. There are lots of old threads where people changed to save M and ended up back here because they weren't real and things went back to old ways.
What have you been doing to keep busy?
What things are you working on (for you)?
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
