As to whether I'm happy staying in the M, I really don't know but I think it's probably for the best at this point. I do find my H incredibly annoying and irritating but...I need to detach more.
Big hug to you too. From what I've read of your sitch, you continue to handle yourself with such grace and courage.
Me: 51 H: 52 T: 23 yrs M: 19 yrs S18, D16, S14 (special needs) PA: 2003/2004 Piecing: 2004 on Suspect H had EA: 8/2012-12/2012