I wish she wasn't so cold and uncommunicative all the time.

I read so many other posts and people talk about listening, really listening. If only I had that option.

I can listen. I can listen to her speaking incessantly on her phone, on tapping constantly on the keyboard (facebook or her email address) or the bleeping texting on her phone.

After missing out on a pub trip on Tuesday with the volleyball crew she's decided that she'd go on tonight instead with the alternative volleyball crew.

Sometimes I feel as if I'm dangling from a cliff with only my 3 lovely children saving me from dropping whilst my wife is looking over me dazed and when she does decide to come over I'm not certain whether she will give me her hand or tread on my fingers. (At the moment I feel as if it'll be the latter of the two)

The old saying "you can take a person out of a country but you can't take the country out of a person" seems to resonate so much to me. She seems almost to resent me not being from her native country.

Was feeling so good last night. I suppose I just need to have a good night's sleep and try to refocus.


Me: 42 W: 40
M: 18 T: 20
D13 D10 S7
BD: 8/2012
Still living together