So I remind myself that his behavior, his lack of remorse and ultimately, his moving on with someone else to escape the pain I inflicted, is not only expected, but justified. I have truly not really earned his forgiveness.
I think you can be sorry for things you truly believe you did wrong, but you did NOT push him to cheat on you or to leave his children. That was a decision he made that you cannot own the blame for.
You can forgive him for cheating on you and leaving, but not on the basis that you pushed him to it. You did not.
Accuray
Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11 Start Reconcile: 8/15/11 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced) In a New Relationship: 3/2015