All the things you describe above that you want to change, you can get through meditation.

And it doesn't cost a thing! There are great resources all over the web.

You might not get serenity but you can get close to it.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss