I realize that I am not God and cannot control the actions of other people. I can only control my actions. I can control my thoughts, whether I choose to think positive thoughts or negative thoughts.

Proverbs 23:7 For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he: Eat and drink, saith he to thee; but his heart is not with thee.

This is something I am working on, realizing that my thoughts lead my action which will lead my heart. I have control over my mind and my actions and my heart, this does not happen by magic. I choose to be happy, positive, productive, and a Godly man. I choose to forgive, love and be kind to others. This is such a simple idea yet profoundly difficult to fully realize.

How do I achieve this goal? For me it's about getting out of the way and letting God lead me. It's about praying, meditating and reading the Bible. It's about realizing I have only one life to live, this is it and it's time to start living like the person I want to be, regardless of how others behave around me.

My wife contacted me today to say that we are going to owe 2,700 in taxes as she did not have enough taken out for her business. I did not get upset, it is what it is. I could probably tell her that it is her debt and good luck with it, however I am not going to do that. I was pleasant and thanked her for calling me. I am choosing to Love in the way that I see fit. I am sure she is freaking out about the amount and if I can ease her a bit by paying it I will. This will delay my motorcycle by a bit but... oh well. This is not going to be a pattern as this debt was incurred whiled she lived with me, anything from this time on is her puppy to deal with.

You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.