TheUF - Changing gears - Dropping the rope?

[theUF]

Hey guys.

Been a bit quite lately. Partially b/c there hasn't been a lot to report, and also b/c I needed the break from my sitch.

Friends have been consistently asking how things are going and what my thoughts are. Some also say they think there's "something there". Off course that's based merely on what I tell them, and holds no weight to it.

Ex is more balanced now and the anger fits and provocing has mostly stopped. We talk almost exclusively about S, but lately there's been a lot more upbeat chit chat blended in. We have nice talks, but I keep a healthy amount of distance. That's my view of it anyway.

When we do talk she always makes sure to mention everything good going on in her life, and if I mention something good from my life she is always at least equally good. I'm left with the feeling she is constantly trying to impress/one-up me, but that's mindreading. Which of course I never do However I'll admit it's a bit annoying. Is this usual for a WAS?

We got into living arrangements and she tipped me about a place closer to her place. She went of about how the future would look, and I told her there is no point in predicting the future. Life is an open book, and what seems like the future today, may be nothing tomorrow. One can't always act based on what the future MIGHT look like. She agreed and we moved on.

An open book is how I can best describe life at the moment. I have no certain opinion about how I would like my sitch to work out. No expectations. I just know I want to become a better father and person, find out what I want in future relationships and life in general. I've been holding off on serious dating, I would be open for it, but I need this time for myself to work on myself.

I feel more well-balanced, more social and do feel like I'm making progress slow and steady. Looking forward to figuring out what lies next!