Yes Snodderly, it was just a thought in a few minutes of anger, I was surprised that I HAD the thoughts, I thought I was "beyond" that "consideration"...just like I didn't think I would have an inferiority concern...but I did...both are passed and working on the healing and doing as you advised.
When I wrote earlier on Friday:
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I am still not pressuring, letting her lead...my 3 month check-in is due soon, I know my answer...no desire or pressing need to quit or "move on"...what's another 90 days for a possible 20-40 years more in the big scheme...low cost, so I'll buy... wink
This was written a couple hours after the breaking of the lab results...and I still feel that way, just had to move through some feelings....sneaky, tricky ego got me for a few minutes... T^2
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
