Great Luke, about the tarp, and the boat, and what you said about the trip. I think those three stories were lacking some of the fears that have been rampant in your posts. I think you might have been reluctant to even buy the tarp because she'd comment. She did, and you politely disagreed, and how do you feel? Are you ok with that disagreement? Are you going to proceed with trying to sell it and see how you do? (Do you want to sell it?) I think you did pretty well facing potential fears there, and hope you saw that you practiced saying and doing things and handling any resultant comment.
I like that you didn't conclude the conversation about the parks; you still want to think about it, and you listened to her objections. Now, the way I see it, you really really want to see the parks while you're there. You need to check with S about his job and see if he wants to be with you for the parks or go home, but it sounds like you're going to the parks. W is free to choose and may choose to go home - even though apparently she too wants to see the parks - just to not hang out with you. That's ridiculous. Go ahead and plan what you want to do, and invite her, and her saying she won't go isn't going to be any worse than what you're used to, you can handle it.
Do you think crying was unreasonable last BD six years ago? I don't. There are plenty of men here who've cried. Your W wants to be with someone more masculine and strong than you have acted to date, but you're starting to practice getting there.
It sounds like you have decided to leave the question of divorce in her hands and that you think she's eventually headed in that direction. If that's the case, you have nothing to lose by practicing more strength in yourself now.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
