Another dollar in my one-man show

[MrBond]

"Hope this makes the picture or where I'm at clearer."

Yes it does. It shows you're still the egotistical man that your W left you for. I apologize for being blunt, however, there is no humility in your words. In fact, they've gotten worse. Ultimately it's why your W wants nothing to do with you. She has seen through your facade and you've shown it time and time again here.

By the way, 25years has been INCREDIBLY patient with you and you ignore her as you would a common street person. If you treat someone who has tried to help you with no respect, then we know how your W feels.

"1. What do I see different since I'm here? Well first, to back off. I still would be in the stage of writing letters and phone call attempts, apologies"

All this was fine until...

"and blaming me for all the bad things in the marriage"

You played a big part in it and at least was honest about it when you first posted here. Now you've downplayed your role and demonized your W.

"BUT I know better,"

No you don't.

"and I'm not knocking at a closed door, the more I knock, the more locks W puts. (that's an image)."

It's because everytime she looks through the peep hole, she sees the same man there. (that's an image).

"and when he realizes why his life is broken, to find the strength to be as noble as I am and forgive W."

Egotistical as usual. I hope your son can forgive YOU.

"And third, lots of perspective."

Where?

"2. What are my options? Today I went to C, and I told her my theory about letting my W "win"."

How "noble" of you. Playing the controller, trickster again.

"She said it was best to think of it this way : W needs time to figure out whatever she needs to figure out. She may or may not reach the conclusion that breaking a family is bad, but for the moment she needs time."

So you listen to a C to whom you've painted yourself as a victim, and ignore 25years and others who you DON'T PAY but have given you solid, practical advice THAT WORKS WHEN FOLLOWED.

"So, until the end of June I'll pay, and not complain once more."

I'd like to wager on that.

"I won't escape either or give W all."

I'd like to wager on that as well.

"In fact, if W thinks I'm not genuine about my interest with S, she'd have to admit that I do a pretty good job in taking care of him."

How so? That's in your mind. To all of us fathers who are REALLY dedicated to our children, we have told you otherwise.

"3. GAL ? Absolutely, I have picked up ice skating and hockey for fun. I curled all winter (it's over next week though)--> which I'll replace with lawn bowling when spring hits in three months, and with a group of friends we play guitar together. (Although, being 5 to 8 years younger than me, the topics of conversation often does NOT match my tastes.. if you know what I mean), and they call me a square. But they aren't christians either."

Oh so you are the sole savior in a mass of heathens. Quite bigoted.

"4. Today I was in tears at the C. But I know things will be brighter after. If not here, at least on the other side. I don't need any medication or support group."

Sure, because you love yourself so much that you can support yourself. BTW, there's nothing wrong with loving yourself, however, when it borders on narcissism, then there's a problem.

"5. Yes, I said I would "try" to make an arrangement with W, to stop paying alimony in exchange of half of the money. And of course 50-50% for S. What if she refuses? I will have the L try, that's for sure. Then she'll have to see if spending the 40 to 50 000$ in fighting me is worth it."

I think she will to escape from you.

"6. i know that W had nothing scheduled for the Sunday, because she said S needed to go to Sunday school and do his nap and spend time with them... like those things are unmissable..."

Aren't you "Christian". Nothing wrong with spending time with God.

"And I forgot to fill the log book because I couldn't sit still for 5 minutes and write with S touching everything."

You JUST figured that out now? That shows how lacking you are at parenting. Your W is justified in thinking the way she has.

"Plus I wonder if she reads it, because her part is with another writing (her mom's probably) and bad French, so she doesn't even tell her mom what to write. So, what do I think W does when S is at home? She is busy studying and going to her part-time job. Not caring for S."

Mindreading.

You're on a roll.