So close I can taste it...

[leopoldstotch]

SM I don't think you should post as soon as you can. You really should take a few days to really let these posts sink in because every one of them rings true about you. The answers you seek are right before your very eyes yet you continue to brush them aside.

You are thwarting your own progress. MWD says not to pursue WAS yet you continue to do so,why? How is pursuing working out for you? We are told to GAL yet you really don't GAL and have many excuses for not GAL, why? We are told not focus on our WAS yet your focus is 100% on her and OM, why and exactly how is that working out for you?

You say you were selfless in your M but does your W think that, only she really knows. You admit to being arrogant and others see it in your posts. I would be willing to bet that you don't think you are outwardly arrogant but I bet those who know you personally would say otherwise and I wouldn't be surprised if that arrogance manifested itself in your M.

You seem to believe that you had a great M but I'm telling you that your W thinks otherwise. If she didn't then you wouldn't be here. I think you are still in denial that there were underlying issues in your M and that you were apart of those issues. Swallow your pride SM its getting in the way of you making progress and if you don't watch out it will be your downfall.