Soul.Searching my way back (#2)

[Soul.Searching]

Yes, I was angry, actually I seem red for the first 10 mins or so! Then I was angry for a little longer. I was upset/ hurt, not for me but for my children. They will most likely find out. I did feel these emotions but they really did just wash over me. They didn't really last long. Maybe half an hour in total.

His actions have nothing to do with me. What he says/ does says nothing about me or my children but says everything about him.

It is sad, definitely but it is what it is. As a mother, I would obviously not let my children be subjected to this, if I could prevent it. Unfortunately, in this circumstance, there is nothing I can do, without causing further damage.

All I can do now is sit back and try to pick up the pieces as best I can.

H tells me that no one else knows him like I do,... I feel I don't even know him anymore. So that means no one knows him. Honestly I don't think he knows himself anymore and I've told him that. He agrees with me.

When I see him now, I don't see my husband, I see a stranger. It's actually quite eerie.