It has been three nights since I have heard from xSO. I wonder if that has anything to do with the fact I brushed off his crumbs. I have not contacted him.
We are in that rinse, repeat cycle. Back to where he no longer feels guilty enough to call and see how I am doing.
I know this is a long process, like any kind of grieving but I can hardly wait until the day when I am truly detached. When I don't care or notice if he does not call or answer a text.
Last year we spent my birthday together. I did not know then that he was already involved with the OW - maybe not physically yet, but involved. He has been detached from me for a long time. And I want to catch up!
I got a letter from his mom yesterday offering her condolences. It was such a nice letter, and personal. I doubt she even knows what her son has done. He will not have told her and I would not tell her. I wonder if he knows she wrote me?
