Okay, after i last responded to her message that she sent in the morning, asking her What Her Feelings were about instead of what anyone can interpret from the lyrics, her response back was just a link to the video from YouTube with the written lyrics.
So, i replied later in the evening to her:
Wifes Name,
That is one of the versions i listened to and read the lyrics from last night. Those lyrics have so many interpretations.
What are YOU feeling and asking?
What can i do to help comfort you? I used to know, but I'm afraid to do anything that you might take the wrong way.
We ALL make mistakes, but we ALL can be forgiven and Redeemed too, if that is what your own core values are seeking. I hope that my own actions have spoken louder and more to the point than any words that i have spoken.
Maybe you feel it's too painful for you to put into your own words.
Don't be scared or intimidated Wifes Name. I just don't want to see my wife hurting.
Do any of these other peoples interpretations say what's in Your Heart Wifes Name?
Don't be Lost. Keep traveling the path that You feel is the right one that embraces your true inner most core values about what's right for you to be at peace.
I would hope and Pray that you feel you can talk to me and tell me YOUR feelings. I am here for you when you feel safe enough to want to open up with me.
I just want you to know that you are not alone. I will be there when you are ready to take down the walls.
Me
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She just replied this morning:
What I need from you is to just relax. Don't bombard me with emails unless about Sons Name, animals, etc. I did break down and went back on the Paxil week ago. Takes couple Weeks to adjust but starting to feel difference already. I will call this evening to talk to Sons Name. Promise. What time best? For me prob after 7, before 9.
Wifes Name
What seems frustrating to me is that except for replying to her e-mail about the song lyrics, i had not been in contact with her for the previous 8 days.
I guess i was hoping that she saw her past actions and the consequences and was reaching out to me.
I'll still chalk that up as a small baby step though, because she is the one who initiated contact.
AITL
Me, 55 W, 36 T, 10 yrs S-9 M, 8 yrs 1st D-Day, 9-27-2009, With 1st bf, ea/pa 2nd D-Day, 12-5-2009, With her best friends bf, ea/pa W, AA relapse early 2009-Current W moved out 2-16-2012 New OM 5-2012
