Help & Advice needed please Thread 2

[Intact]

You're right Mach - I never realised before but I use the word "honestly" a lot. Even in conversation - I'll do my best to be more careful with my choice of words... I have been honest on here and with myself - although my feelings do change constantly on this roller coaster ride.

I love my Wife because she is the Mother of my beautiful Son. I love her because of what she has done for me and how (up until this) she has always been by my side.

Love too me is hard to explain... I want the best for her, I really do. I want her to have happiness and health. I of course, feel that can be achieved within a new relationship between the 2 of us.

I know exactly why I'm here. I took my Wife for granted. I pushed her away unless sex was involved. If I was in a bad mood I would take it out on her with snide remarks, and I wasn't financially independent. Yes, I can look back now and it is all too easy too see. I am ashamed and I am bettering myself - working on myself.

I have always been a "great Dad" according to my W - I feel at times I should have made sure we were still a "couple" as well as a family.

Mach, I genuinely want to thank you for your advice and support. It really does help me.