When he acts all nice to me these days I feel like he is up to something. But I also think that he has a sudden fear that I am really moving on and may file...so he thinks he should maybe rethink all this.
Too much mind reading, I know.
Anyway, after the messaging yesterday that I explained in the rpevious post, last night he text and apologizes. Which is good - but this happens all the time anymore - he always said I need to learn to keep MY mouth shut - while hes the one that sends awful text mesages and then has to come back and apologize.
He followed that up by mentioning scheduling his tonsil surgery. He was told last year that he should probably have this. So how about the timing on that?!
He sent one of my good friends a text over the weekend. Guess he decided it was time to share 'his side'. Basically it was that I enver come out of myself and that he can live with someone that will not love, support, kiss and hug unconditionally. That it was always my way and he was supposed to be there when I wanted him.
While I don't doubt a lot of this the first year of becoming new parents, when we all know things change greatly, for the last over a year I have been really trying to be there for him a lot more - and it usually ended up with me getting rejected.
I'm really tired of hearing how it was like that for the first 3 years of marriage. I realize that this is his reality and I can't change it but I'm tired of apologizing for it too. We need to move forward and quit remembering the past.
But overall the last several days he has been very pleasant, wanting to chat with me. Hmmm...think he sees I might actually move on and not live like this.
