Yes, I know I should know better than to try to converse with H. It was dumb of me.
He thinks that because he's been "faking it" in our marriage, its fine to expect me to do that as well.
I don't know that at least consciously H thinks there is anything to see through. He really believes he is justified with ow, that I'm the one with the problem. I agree, I have a huge problem ~ but not exactly the same one H sees.
I don't know Snodderly. I don't want to be a psychotic B!tch from hell, but that is definitely where I see this going if I don't do the famous DB detach. And for me, detaching while continuing to "play house" is just not possible. I really have tried, and continue to try.
I am also trying NOT to hate H. I don't have respect for him, that I know. Love? Not sure. Not so much lately in the "romantic" sense, more in the "fellow man" sense. Don't like to see anybody suffer, and I do know he's suffering.
But so am I.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
