Turtle, it sounds like we maybe are grieving together. I drank a few glasses red wine Friday and cried all night lol! Some sense of loss, probably for the realization that what I want and what I actually need are two very different things.
My H also makes the " glad you are meeting new people" noise and as you know has been pushing me to date. I accepted a date and canceled.. Not on his timeline and I won't alleviate his guilt or affirm his notion that " aha. I don't love him after all". I'll go when I'm ready.
So this all catapulted me back on my path because I can't live like that
Still friends with H, still best friends, but it is a different vibe for me. My mantra is " live my life cuz I can't live someone else's !"
