The View from the Blanket II

[bustingout]

But fear and love can't live in the same space. You have to make a choice.

And it sounds like they are.. love him and let him go OR desperately hold on because of fear....

This is profound to me...yes, they cannot occupy the same space. Love is freeing, fear is suffocating. One is a release, the other is a holding on to.


The latter won't work... because the truth is that your H is already gone. Holding onto that fear is holding onto an echo of once was. Not was is.

I say that not to hurt you but in the hopes of freeing you....

Val, you are not hurting me. You ARE freeing me. These tears are tears of release. Of acceptance.

just as he made the choice to walk away - only he can make a choice in walking towards you.

Yes. Finally comprehending this ^^^

Yes you influence him by showing best self, GALing, etc.. but in the end.. this is his journey to take.. not yours.

I know..we have separate journeys now. And I cannot do anything but continue on mine.

I know that's a hard pill to swallow.. but I think you intellectually get it.

I think I do. It has been my broken heart and fear holding me back.

Thank you Val. I feel like you you entered into my darkness and handed me a light.