Depression Tad. The more you make yourself get up and go and do things, esp things you enjoy you will get a dophmine fix (totally misspelled that), and you will surprisingly feel better. AND YES you need MORE of that!
Tad I think (if you havent), you need to get back into your music. I know you loved it. We as a family use to faithfully watch Nascar....we loved it. I stopped watching because it hurt. BUT you know what? I started thinking, I am SURE my xh and son watch it so why should I MORN by not watching my favorite sport. I am sure they dont miss a race. So I started watching again when i can. I sometimes send my son a text about the race. He doesnt respond but I send it anyway.
Hate Tad? Why do you think shes hates you? What if she hung up at the SOUND of your voice? What if she told you that every minute of your marriage was a waste and nothing good came of it but your son? What if she tried to throw you in jail at the first sight of any chance? What if she turned your children against you? Tad my xh does all these things, but I dont think he HATES me. Thats a strong word. He is just a JERK and has lost his mind. He lives in another world. Water off a ducks back Tad. WHO CARES anymore. The only thing that bothers me is my son listening to it, but I have decided he is a adult and he will get the pic one day.
I just keep telling him i love him and am there for him. I use to pretend to be upbeat in front of him BUT now I dont have to pretend!
It will come Tad. BUT you have to let her go. OR your life is pretty much gonna suck for a long time.
