Like you, I feel empty a lot of the time. It's catch 22 almost - when I don't have our son I miss him desperately, when he is with me I love it and have great fun but it is always in the back of mind that wife is with OM - I find it very painful.
W 39 Me 33 M 9yrs 8 year old Son ILYBINILWY - Dec 12 W moved out - Jan 2013 OM - Jan 2013 I file for D - May 2013