One of the reasons my H said he received a wakeup call in December when we had the papers at the L's office (still do...) is that he realized that the kids and I weren't going to be part of his life any more in the same way.
The agony of not hearing from him, seeing FaceBook pics of him, etc. was truly awful but I kept telling myself I could make it for such-and-such a period of time. Like if I didn't hear from him in the evening like I expected, I could make it till morning. And if I didn't hear from him then, I might have another activity to do. And if I didn't hear from him then....etc. And eventually he would text or call or want to see me or kids and then it was better b/c I was busy doing something not sitting around waiting.
Keep going day-by-day. You are learning and growing.
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway
